May is a survivor. But she doesn't feel like one. She feels angry. And lost. And alone. Eleven months after the school shooting that killed her twin brother, May still doesn't know why she was the only one to walk out of the band room that day. No one gets what she went through--no one saw and heard what she did. No one can possibly understand how it feels to be her.
Zach lost his old life when his mother decided to defend the shooter. His girlfriend dumped him, his friends bailed, and now he spends his time hanging out with his little sister...and the one faithful friend who stuck around. His best friend is needy and demanding, but he won't let Zach disappear into himself. Which is how Zach ends up at band practice that night. The same night May goes with her best friend to audition for a new band.
Which is how May meets Zach. And how Zach meets May. And how both might figure out that surviving could be an option after all.
I was given this book in exchange for an honest review
I wanted to read this book because I knew that I would relate to it in some way. While my school was never shot up, I was robbed at gunpoint back when I worked retail in late 2017. So I felt I could be a good judge on the PTSD factor and dealing with feeling unsafe in a place you once didn’t it.
Well, there is some of that in this book but there’s also this romance that at times, kinda pushes that to the background. Which I didn’t like... I know that sounds stupid coming from me because I love romance but in this story... it’s not bad, just not what I wanted.
The writing is fine and dandy, nothing special but perfectly on par with others in the genre. Now, this is a personal preference, I HATED all the cussing in this book. This is also gonna sound strange but when books don’t have cussing I think they sound too unrealistic but this was just too much. Someone needed to wash their mouths out with soap as my grandma would say. It reminded me of how my younger sister and all her friends who think they’re so cool talk. It’s not classy at all. But some teenagers love to talk that way so it does fit. I just don’t like it.
All in all, middle of the road book that tried its best to give a good message and show something that far too many young people have to deal with in this day and time. I still recommend for that alone.